Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Oh Wells.. A's r finally over.. It's supposed to be a day that i'm looking forward to (dun misunderstand.. I'm still glad it came), but somehow probably cos i know i'm not that best prepared for it yet so it's kinda like a it's "here n gone before u even know it" kinda feeling.
End of As probably just meant a new phase of life for me. The time to do whatever i've always wanted to do but couldn't due to sch n exams, until my enlistment on 8th Jan. Somehow the things to do has already accumulated to such a long list even as my exams have just ended. Can't really figure out wat exactly to do first, but chalet's comin up right tmr (or maybe just later since it's over 12 mid already). Oh wells, no complaints since it's time for vacation:) All the best everybody, take care, cos Charlie's back Yo!=)
Why? Why did this have to happen? I know it's partially my fault, but I just need some time to accept it. Probably this has been the basis of many of ur actions n complaints. But... did u know my impression of u has somehow changed alittle? I dunno if i can still trust u, even as i do not know if u trust me too. Somehow, this relationship has evolved into another dilemma. To carry on or not, the same way or not.. I dunno.. Even at this very moment, I'm not sure if we'll still work out the way we used to be. Somehow, I still feel that u're still hidin somethings from me, even as u're haunted by the ghosts of ur past. Probably I'm undeserving of u, as i'm unable to fufill promises of happiness and love, or should I make this our umpteenth shot at it, which would probably face vulnerability soon, as we once again pick on superficial problems, without correct our innate fundamental ones. Indeed, I'm the greatest fool for I really do not know wat i've always thought i know/can do. I'm Sorry, for all that I am.
11/19/2008 12:45:00 am
