Thursday, September 28, 2006
Hi all once again.. It has definitely been a long time since my previoous entry..haha.. i've been busy all this while, so even though i've lots to say, other commitments somehow just cause me to lose all my interest.haha.. Well, life as a JC student is tough n busy, n no matter how long u work, there just seems to be more n more work.. hardly find time to rest, wat's more blog..haha..
But it's not an excuse, i know..haha.. that's why i'm here now, in front of the com even though i know i should be with my books and studyin intensively..Hmm.. all my expectations, my hopes- I cannot let myself down again.. it's unfair to myself..haha.. in case u guys out there are all wonderin, it's just simply because of my promos lah..haha.. first time in my life i'm feelin so stressed.. actually, i dun even know i feel stress before..haha..hmm.. actually it's not really stress.. it's just worry, and a little of nervousness.. worry: I can't perform up to my expectations? I've wasted to much time on things that are not my priorities.. I admit.. I haven't been a consistent worker, and this has proven to be detrimental to my studies..haha.. somehow this feelin that u can do it, and in fact, more than capable of it, but not achievin it just makes me feel weak..haha..
Anyway i'm not here today to complain about myself? haha.. just want to update my blog alittle and express some of my thoughts.. hmm.. it's already september already.. Wake me up when september ends? haha.. feels so weird.. time really passes so fast.. it just feels like a few days ago when i was takin my o'levels.. now it's already close to the end of my J1 life.. Half of my JC life is almost gone..haha.. Hmm.. I've been doin lots of thinkin this past few weeks.. thinkin about my life.. My pri sch life, sec sch life, then now.. Jc life.. somehow i'm havin a feelin that my life in sch is almost endin already.. n it just feels a little nostalgic about this thought.. haha.. I feel that i've changed ever since i entered JC.. i dislike this me now, but it's not easy to revert back..haha.. probably because of my environment which doesn't let me.. I've developed certain doubts about humanity..hmm.. somehow, it's like the older we get, there just seems to be more of those ppl whom u dunno wat they have up their sleeves.. I feel that i've been more matured in sec sch..haha.. Probably because i'll prefer livin in the past when all things have been simpler.. I dun understand why things that have felt so different to me in the past feels this way now.. i would prefer those of the past..
Hmm.. perhaps i should do lesser of those thinkin and get back to my books..haha.. just to give everyone an update on my life.. so many things have happened..haha.. I'm now a house captain, engaged in so many activities n stuff.. somehow, the 1st 3 months has ended quite awhile ago, however, it just seems like yesterday only.. I've settled in the sch i'm in now, but somehow there's still this part of me which still can't let go..haha.. suddenly found those first 3 months econs notes, of which the lectures i din get to attend, but i've wrote my class already, and somehow it just reminds me of my 1st 3 months..haha.. i dunno why i just felt that i miss that class so much.. haha.. felt so nostalgic.. then the next mornin, something weird happened.. I woke up and looked into my watch, which read 6:11... haha..
Alright guys.. i got to get back to my books already.. Bye guys.. till next time..
9/28/2006 11:04:00 pm