Monday, October 29, 2007
Hi all! learnt to update my blog faster din i? Haha... dunno why but just felt that there's just so much i want o say, but just can't find the right ppl to say.. or maybe the appropriate ppl to talk to...
In the past there'll be ppl like LG n WT around to listen to my crap n rubbish, sometimes we'll even talk about ppl( I know it's bad to talk behind ppl's backs but it's human nature) n stuff.. maybe i was too used to them bein around me, or maybe i just took them for granted, but i realised that now, their presence around me is not something as common as before..
I think back to the past, when we split up into different schs, when we told one another that friendship can be maintained if it is strong enough... Today, i'm not sure how they think about the friendship anymore... Maybe it's because i always grow too attached to things around me, or maybe i just haven't learnt to let go, or to accept the fact totally...
I understand the reality that bein held back by a year would lead to several other consequences.. i thought i convinced myself of it.. but convincin n acceptin is different.. It's like suddenly, i realise that all my friends r leavin, and i'm thrown into a familiar yet strange n foreign environment. Yes! i made new friends.. but how r new friends as compared to old friends who have been through much more.. maybe my definition is badly defined, i'm not sure..
I'm not blamin anybody for how i'm feelin, but it's just a dilemna i face against myself.. I now realised that the consequences of retension is far more than wat i thought, or had initially prepared myself..
In front of ppl i put up a cheerful front, like i'm so carefree and enjoyin myself, but who would know that wat i would long to have would be to toil n work my guts out along with all u guys.. Some ppl think i have it easy, but who would understand the pain of havin to pay for it with a year?
As the promos ends this year, i see ppl facin up to the reality of their actions.. some ppl r happy... some aren't.. some, i just feel sad for them.. but for myself, i just feel consoled, fortunate, that i've escaped this catasthrope that had almost claimed me.. Once again, i see many ppl who were like me.. preparin to be retained.. some were more fortunate with a retest, but some were just forced to embark on an option they had never considered before.. "U reap wat u sow", some ppl would tell me, and perhaps i would agree, but deep down, i just felt that sometimes reality is too cruel on ppl..
For many ppl, tmr is an important day, and i wish them all the best.. However, wat i think is the most important thing is to learn to face failure.. Only when u face failure, and stand up bravely to it, will u grow n emerge a stronger person. I hope all of them would not give up even when they encounter difficult papers, but face up to challenges bravely.. for myself, i failed once.. i wouldn't say i overcomed it totally, but at least i faced up to it.. i dunno why, but i got a feelin my past shadows r catchin up with me, and i'm thinkin of those days i tried so hard to forget again.. but i'm persevere on. All the Best to all in facin the challenges in their lives!
10/29/2007 11:00:00 pm
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
1 year ago, i faced the one of the biggest setback of my life.. some might say that it is just something minor, but to me, it was the biggest slap on my face.. It was a wakeup call for me... Not that i learnt and became some hardworkin mugger-tard or wat, but i started doin my work seriously n stuff life that.. Though i admit i wasn't the Charlie in sec sch, but i was improvin...
Today, 1 year later... i faced the same challenge again... wat is the fate awaitin me? Wat will await me the moment the worst sets in? Do i still have a future in this sch?
A victory that once seemed so important to me.. A victory that is all the more of greater importance now... I'm glad to annouce that it has come!! I'm Promoted!!!
Though my results this time aren't that good, but at least i made it.. 2H2 2 H1, not one less, not one more... kinda ashamed that i'm still achievin such results after one year, but who cares:P I'm promoted.. but once bitten, twice shy.. I dun want to face such rejection or the verge of such extradition again! I must start workin hard... I mustn't let this long awaited victory go to waste! All the way Charlie!!!
世上无难事,只怕有心人。留着青山在,不怕没柴烧。With opportunity presents hope...
10/16/2007 09:51:00 pm