Sunday, March 26, 2006
Lyrics for I honestly love you by Olivia Newton John:
Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know
I love you
I honestly love you
You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head
I love you
I honestly love you
I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say
I love you
I honestly love you
If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this
I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you
To Liyuan: I love u... I honestly love u... Haha... 10 years:P Hope ur troubles r solved...
3/26/2006 03:58:00 am
Haha... not that long since the last time i blog right? haha... an improvement... actually i've always had this feelin in me to blog... To write down all that i'm feelin in my heart... however, guess i'm just quite lazy ba... haha.. but think when i really do start typin, there's just so much for me to say that i just keep on typin n typin, which explains my long blog entries... haha...
Hmm... for the previous week, i've started lessons at AJC already... though, i'll say it again, that AJC is not a sch that i'll ever want to go, not before, not even now, perhaps not even in the future, but i must say that i've not had a very tough time there... think life is improvin for me... guess it's because that feelin of waitin is no longer there... should have given up long ago n spared myself so much pain, but guessed i was just too attached to NJ, n that my love for the sch was just so great ba... haha... but nvm... guess i'm just not fated to be in the sch... haha... I've already bought the uniform for AJ. n had worn it for a week already, so just guess i have to devote myself to the sch already... though from now n then, when i see my fellow friends from NJ, to see them wearin the uniform, I'll feel bad, but then my feelin of attachment with the sch is slowly fadin away already... perhaps this feelin of attachment is shifted to *HER*... haha
Discovered many interestin things bout my new sch, such as our favourite hangout spot n stuff... learned that the sch is not really that bad as wat i thought... had some friends in sec sch with me in the same class, so think it's not that tough for me to blend with the class ba... however, there's still the other group of people in the class, so though my friends r quite close to them, i must still learn to bond with them... got to know them better, but i'm not very confident if they'll become as good friends as those i've made at NJ... think i'll drift with those at NJ too... hai... haha... but think there's always the pros n cons in everything... at least there're more friends with me at AJ... haha... Attended a tutorial with my Physics tutor Mr Chan, n i'm now so motivated to study... haha... got to get that 4 As at the end of my A'levels... made me feel that time will pass quickly so JC life won;t be that long n hard to pass by.. it's already 3 months gone, n not to mention the hols, so guess it won't be hard to pass these 2 years... haha... Hope so...
Hmm... enough bout sch stuff... went to Yew Tee today to help out with the perfomance today... still haven't decided if i want to join AJCO... not sure if i still want to carry on in CO or just find another CCA in which i would be able to learn new stuff... considerin 3 or 4 CCAs.. CO, recreational baskeball, guitar or hmm... not sure, maybe band or something like tennis or squash... haha... some of these sports look quite fun... but not sure bout the portfolio thingy though... haha... but think if i do science research would get the portfolio also... think CO is quite hectic, so dunno if want to carry on with it... hai... got a feelin like betrayin NJCO also... haha... no lag... just kiddin haha...
Eh... though i said i wanted to stop talkin bout my sch stuff? Haha... ok.. i'll stop talkin bout that... hmm... heard bout lots of things happenin in my alma mater... had quite an ok impression of my principal in the past... thought Cat High would improve alot under him... however, guess i was wrong... he's a realistic person... a REAL realistic person... won't elaborate much lest i become accused of defamin him n stuff like that, but ppl who r interested to know can ask me.. but think i dun feel like sayin much already... the only thing i will say to him is, since u regard us as band 3 students, then i only have this to say to u:" We won't talk to a band 3 principal... especially one which made us in band 3 and placed the blame all upon us n our batch of teachers" I'll remember wat u said for life... Other things which i heard was that a junior of mine was expelled... Guess it was his own fault... who asked him to break the rules, n severely... in my opinion, he was an extremely dumb n arrogant person... challengin the rules like this n stuff... he has only himself to blame... but then when i think back again, he's my junior... though not directly, but he's still considered my junior... I still feel sad for him somehow...
Hmm... another incident which happened recently... *her* n her friend had some misunderstandings... dun understand girls.. dunno why they have so many conflicts... Feel like helpin them to settle their probs, but somehow i'm like on *her* side... haha... or at least i'm seen to be on *her* side... haha... feel so awkward in front of her friend... somehow bring it upon myself wheneer they have some probs between them... haha... i'm wierd.. haha
To Liyuan: I hope that we'll never separate... not now, not ever... i hope... I really do... 10 years, a test of our love... I love U now... Hope to say this to u again, 10 years down the road... Hope u settle ur probs... :P
3/26/2006 03:22:00 am
Monday, March 20, 2006
I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I 'll be loving you
Love me
I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll need
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me
Between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me
-To Dearest Liyuan: The future is filled with unknown dangers and obstacles that I'm sure that we'll overcome together... However, just in case, if somehow I fall behind, please do not give up upon me, because I know that deep down in our hearts... Love will always be amongst us... Love Me...
-To 06S11( 1st 3 months) of NJC:
Though I won't be able to walk the rest of my JC life with U people, U people have been great to me... I'll always cherish the wonderful memories we shared together... Thanks:P I'll always be loving u people n NJC... Love Me
3/20/2006 01:41:00 am
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Haha...it has really been a long long long time since the last time i updated my blog... the reason why i took such a long time to update is because i've accumulated far too many things for me to say... that's why i'll update slowly, forgettin some things in the process so that i won't have to update so much... hai... anyway dun think there's anything worth updating about... so many things have happened to me, mostly bad... n these r memories that i would choose to forget... but then without unhappy stuff, how would we know we r truly happy when happy things happen?
Hai... My mood now is bad n terrible... it isn't because of anyone... guess it's just the gods tryin to play a harsh joke on me... n this joke is so bad that i really can't take it... it is almost like a dream that i can't wake up from... this joke began all the way bout a month ago on the 10th feb 2006... it was a day that was highly anticipated... it should have been a day when everybody would celebrate...but guess it turned out to be a day when most would grief... a grief that is unforgettable n painful... it was the release of the 2005 O'levels results...
we already heard news on our way to sch from the JCs we were posted to in our first 3 months... news that were greatly negative... while some others were happy their sch had done well, all we could do was to not believe in the news that's circulatin, n continue to believe in ourselves... however, as we finally stepped into the sch hall that we once had many memories, great n lousy, we were to experience the worst memory we would all have in that hall where we once dwelled... OUr sch did not perform as well in the o'levels as expected.. in fact, we performed far worse... WORST... hai... i got 10 for my L1R5... it was definitely a disappointin score, n i cried, but nevertheless, i was contented as i was better than many that were far worse... but it was not a feelin that if i were given a choice, ever to experience again... to see the principal showin us a black face, as well as the stories n happenings that followed this incident, it was almost like a torture to know wat is happenin to ur alma mater because of wat u n ur batch of fellow sch mates have done... guess we really have to blame ourselves for wat had happened to us... with some time, i eventually got over this... but never once did i forget...
However, another blow was to happen to me after i recovered from one.. it was the about 1 month away from the previous blow.. one which till now, i'm still feelin bad about... one that i know i haven't recoverd yet... it was the 3rd of march... the release of our JAE postin results... despite the failure i faced at the o's, i was still expectin that amongst all that had taken place, i might still be given a chance to remain at the college that i've bonded n developed a loyalty n belongin towards the sch... however, the joke hasn't ended... we reap wat we sow... perhaps this is really wat happened to me... i wasn't able to stay at NJC... instead, i was posted to a sch that if given a chance, i would never have chose that sch... it is indeed a sch that made me appreciate more the sch i was in before...i won't name this sch as i would offend the sch, n i still want to respect this new sch even though i dun like it... when i first got posted to this sch, i still harboured hopes of returnin to my previous college... but then as days passed, n now things have more or less settled, i guess my chances r as small as a pea...but i'm still hopin, but i dun hope for much...i'm just prepared for the worst i guess, or m i just afraid that the more i hope, the greater i would fall? I'm prayin... prayin very hard for just that little chance... even that little chance for me to return... now i realise just how much i really love NJC... in the beginnin, i even thought i would change sch if my results turn out to be better... but then if given a choice now, i would have chose to stay even if i've gotten all the A1s...
Haha... thought i might not have a chance to stay at NJC ever again, but in the time that i was there, i've had some of the best experiences that i would ever get... these r some of the memories that belongs to only my class, n these r definitely memories that i won't ever forget... haha... there's so many ppl that i've developed a new impression towards... ppl that i've eventually learned to appreciate n see their good sides... Thanks 06S11...
-To Liyuan:Haha... u think i'll forget bout u ah.. haha... no lah... i want to thank u too for bein with me throught tough times too...
3/08/2006 05:48:00 pm